Christmas eve now.. some are heading out from their home to celebrate, while others are heading back home to see the love ones, to spend time and have a proper dinner for celebration..Im here to writing and expressing all the disturbances that have been going on in my mind all day. All I want for Christmas is just my happiness that used to be so easy on eyes, and easy to get. But why now it seems to run away from me so fast that i could not chase it?..
God, i know i have been such a bad hamba to you.. but as far as i know, i have never done bad to others and as much as can i refuse to be the source of any conflicts. But now here i am looking like a sad excuse since the day i have my trust broken to pieces. I am seeking Your Forgiveness and strength to go through all this by myself. I a m now asking for my happiness, the sense of belongingness, sense to love and be loved. Please Allah...i am asking for a peaceful journey till the end of my life. Allow me to say Your name before my body left lifeless..
As i am aware, revenge and grudge can only lead to another heartache and sin. However, i am praying to you Allah, please let me see and know when he finally taste the pain he caused to me all this while. His pain can cure my pain. Is that too much? Please Allah.. I know You are the most Just and All- Knowing..
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